Somewhere i Belong~

It's sad that another long weekend has ended

And it makes me wonder why good times have to end up so quickly.

I also pondered,

despited this really awful headache and heartache,

about me and my place here on earth.

Watch Your...

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.

Watch your words, for they become actions.

Watch your actions, for they become habits.

Watch your habits, for they become character.

Watch your character for it become your destiny.

~Karma is a Bitch~

I Wonder...

I wonder how many tears and bruises you need before your heart is truly broken.

I wonder how many times you can listen to the words

before they numb you completely.

I wonder how many times you need to say the words so that you can believe in them.

I wonder how many times you need to curl and rock yourself,

chanting over and over again that everything woul be alright

before things really do turn out alright.

I wonder about forevers, is there such thing?

I wonder about words and what we can believe in it.

I wonder about Love and what lies in them.

I wonder about how much a heart can hold.

I wonder about sharing.

I wonder about jealousy.

I wonder about death.

I wonder about hope

I wonder about lies

I wonder about the truth.

I wonder about the future

I wonder about the dreams i weave.

I wonder, I just wonder

For the heat and tongue deceives even the most discerning and wise

and we are disillusioned to see the things that are not truly there.

Sometimes, we need to wake up and see for yourself for what you are.

In my case, nothing really much.

Maybe i'm just a Loser that keep doing the same mistake.

I wonder why it took me so long to see all this and to feel it.

I wonder..

Sending you my love on your birthday.

Happy Birthday Mama!!

Thinking of you with love on your birthday

and wishing you everything that brings you happiness today and always.
To the world, you may be one person.

But to me, you are the world.

I love You!

I <3 Mama!

Happy Diwali!

It's been a while since i updated this blog.

Well, since the idea and time wasn't there,

i sort of lazy to blog.

Besides, the new internet connection sucks!

So put it all together= Laziness

:P

As for now, well..

Seriously, i have no idea what to write about.

I'm Idea-less.

There is something I really want to write about.

But, i'm just too lazy and wish i could forget.

Let it go i guess.

But it's getting harder for me to do so.

OMG!

How i wish i can just snap my finger and make it all go away.

Sigh~

I know that a lot of people think that I'm stupid & selfish.

I kinda agree with them you know.

I'm stupid and selfish.

What more can i say?

You don't really know me

if you really think of me to be like that.

Arrgghhhh!

I got nothing more to say.

~*~*~*~*~

Happy Diwali to All My Friends!

Have a blast guys!

Gift Of Love~

Happy Birthday my dearest and sweetest,

not a day goes by when I do not think of you

and how empty my life would be if you were not here.

With each year I'll love you more.

Remember that your best years are still ahead of you

and I'll be there for every up down and in between

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Not Always~

Everyone makes mistakes.

Nobody’s perfect.

As much as we might not like to admit it sometimes,

everyone messes up sooner or later,

especially when it comes to the relationships we have with other people.

You talk it out, forgive the other person, and even if you don’t forget,

you move forward from there, right?

Not always.

What happens when the person you’re dating

makes a mistake that you’re finding hard to forgive?

What happens if he/she didn’t just tell you a little white lie,

but a bigger one with hurtful consequences?

Cheating seems to be the most obvious thing that a guy/girl would lie about

especially if they did it not only once, twice but many times??

~*~*~*~*~*~

I'm so tired~

So i just don't really care what will happen now.

I already told what i need to tell.

What happen next depends on the other party.

To say i don't care would be a lie.

But, at this point

Honestly, enough is enough!

After years of accumulated emotion and wounds?

Another chance without something in return?

I don't think so.

If this makes me an ungrateful bitch,

I accept that.

You still love her right?

Do as this bitch wants,

or just leave me alone!

Quotes Me Not Over n Over Again~

1.I never doubted you; I just doubted your love for me.

2. Something taught me that I have to move on like the rest of the world is and to stop living on a bunch of old yesterdays.

3. Your heart is completely cold, and now I am wondering how I ever though you were capable of love.

4. I guess we were the dreamers that became lost in their own dreams.

5. I wish I could write my name all over you and say your mine.

6. Never regret a moment that made you happy.

7. Laughter, some say that was my cure, but we both know it was you.

8. Falling in love, or falling apart?

9. You’re my miracle without you there would be no tomorrow.

10. If happiness was a gift I would it to you.

Me Out Of Control?

Hoobastank
"Out Of Control"

I've done everything as you say

I've followed your rules without question

I thought it would help me see things clearly

But instead of helping me to see

I look around and it's like I'm blinded

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

Where should I go?

What should I do?

I don't understand what you want from me

Cause I don't know

If I can trust you

I don't understand what you want from me

I feel like I'm spinning out of control

Try to focus but everything's twisted

And all along I thought you would be there

(Thought you would be there)

To let me know I'm not alone

But in fact that's exactly what I was

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

Where should I go?

What should I do?

I don't understand what you want from me

Cause I don't know

If I can trust you

All of the things you've said to me

I may never know the answer

To this endless mystery

Where should I go?

What should I do?

I don't understand what you want from me

Is it a mystery?

Is it a mystery?

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

I'm spinning out of control...

Where should I go?

What should I do?

I don't understand what you want from me

Cause I don't know

If I can trust you

All the things you've said to me

And I may never know the answer

To this endless mystery

Where should I go?

What should I do?

I don't understand what you want from me

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

I'm spinning out of control

Out of control

Hate is Benci...

Benci itu sesungguhnya adalah cinta yang terluka,

benci datang kepada orang yang kita cintai.

Bukan dipinta datang mengetuk tapi datang tak diundang.

Pernahkah kita disakiti oleh orang yang baru kita kenal,

misalkan kita dihina oleh orang yang baru kita kenal,

berapa lamakah kita membenci dia?

mungkin hanya 1-2 hari saja kita mengingatnya.

Tapi bila kita disakiti oleh orang yang kita sayangi,

dihina oleh teman kita, betapa pedihnya hati kita

dan teringat sampai berbulan-bulan

bahkan bertahun-tahun pun tak bisa dilupakan.

Benci datang kepada orang yang kita cintai

ketika kita menutup seluruh kebaikan

yang dilakukan oleh orang itu dengan kesalahan dia.

Bila itu dilakukan oleh orang lain hanya sebentar saja dapat kita lupakan.

Saat hati kita terluka dan membenci seseorang yang kita sayangi,

pasti kita akan mengingat seluruh kesalahan dia di masa lalu

dan membuat kita semakin membenci orang itu.

Bagaimana rasa benci,

benci selalu bersarang di hati dan pikiran kita jadi tak keruan,

kita ingat akan dia, setiap saat.

Membara di hati membuat kita semakin membenci dia.

Benci membuat kita hilang akal

dan membuat keinginan membalas rasa sakit yang kita alami.

~*~*~*~*~

Cuba bila kita membenci seseorang yang kita lakukan justeru sebaliknya,

kita ingat seluruh kebaikan dia,

dari kenal hingga saat ini dan seluruh waktu yang kita lalui bersama,

waktu yang dia luangkan untuk kita,

hadiah-hadiah yang kita terima dari dia,

waktu kita ada masalah dia bersama kita

dan seluruh masa bahagia bersama dia.

Jika kita lakukan itu dan bandingkan dengan

kesalahan dia adakah ketidak adilan,

betapa salahnya tidak sebanding dengan kebaikannya.

Adakah kita membenci dia karana kesalahan

yang dia perbuat dan tidak memaafkannya??

bukankah kita pun pernah membuat kesalahan kepadanya

dan ia memaafkan??

Bila tidak, ingatkah kita kepada Yang Maha Kuasa

betapa kita banyak berbuat kesalahan demi kesalahan, dosa demi dosa,

apakah Tuhan membenci kita????

Padahal kesalahan kita sangat besar dan kebaikan kita sangat sedikit.

Pantaslah kita memohon ampun dan belas kasih-Nya

jika kita sendiri tidak lakukan sesama kita.

Saat membenci seseorang ingatlah kita bukan malaikat

yang tidak pernah berbuat kesalahan,

maka berdoalah bagi dia yang menyakiti kita

agar dia menyedari kesalahannya

dan maafkan lah dia agar hati kita jadi tenang dan damai.

~*~*~*~*~

I've every reason in the world to hate you

I tried my best to forgive and forget

But,

It is getting hard because u never learn

U keep repeat the same mistake,

Keep wounding the same Wound

with different type of 'weapons'

In the end all i can say is

'I should know better'