Salam Aidiladha~

As Aidiladha approaches,

i think it's important to take a gratitude inventory.

A number of things in life can make us uncomfortable or even a little down.

but sometimes they are gifts in disguise.

And we already sacrifice enough for what we have today.

Here are my top things to be thankful for:

1. My birthday already pass, i'm thankful for growing 1 year older.

Not everyone gets the opportunity. (^_^)

Again, thanks for the presents etc.

2. If i have to wait in line at the supermarket for my groceries, it annoys me but

i'm thankful that i can afford what i eat and have a convenient place to buy it.

3. I'm thankful for the ability to pay bills, tuition fees (thanks to the ATM)

even if it means that i had to give up some things that i want.

4. When my BF is acting all grumpy and giving me a hard time,

it always drives me crazy and nuts

but, i feel grateful for having the love of my life around here.

5. When i go back to my hometown and meet my parent during summer,

they always tell me to run my life accordingly, (well, not always)

i was like 'come on!! I'm already 23 years old!

No one can tell me how to run my life!!'

but i'm thankful that i still have them around to give me advise.

i love u mum n dad!!

6. I'm thankful that me and my siblings are fond of each other.

No matter what we will always find a time to reconnect

and tell each other stories of our life.

7. I don't have a lot of friends, but i'm more than grateful if they remembers my name,

and they accept me for what i am and never ever judge me.

I'm grateful to those who still keep in touch with me from then till now.

~*~*~

Kinda sleepy right now, so

i gonna sleep.

gud night everyone!

Thanks for everything!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha~

Being Me~

All my life i had been looking for something,

and everywhere i turned someone tried to tell me what it was

I accepted their answer too,

though they were often in contraindiction

and even self-contraindictory.

I was naive.

I was looking for myself and asking everyone

except myself question which i,

and only i could answer.

It took me a long time and much painful boomeraging of my expectations

to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have born with,

That I am nobody but myself.

~Ralph Ellison, Battle Royal~

Happy Belated Birthday to Me!!!

Happy 23th birthday to me!!

(Belated actually :P)

~*~

Anyways,

Thanks to all for the wishes.

You guys are awesome!

Thank you to Kay, Layla, Alyn, Mags, Vicks, Abs, and Kanch

for the lovely and wonderful birthday dinner last night.

and not to forget for all the gifts:

1.My gift from kay still sangkut kat kastam..(-_-) wuwuwu

2.Cool twin mugs from Layla.. (>_<) weeeee..

3. Cute body-T from Mags and Kanch. It was a perfect fit. :P

4.Perfume from Alyn. Love the subtle & distinctive smell.

5. Gift from my family back home. Gonna 'tuntut' from them next summer.

Love them all!!

~*~

Turning 23 makes no different for me

But, i'm think more of the future,

My future

and what lies in it.

The unknown

scares the hell out of me

but i'm so looking foward to it.

Macam orang selalu kata;

'Whatever with the past has gone

The best is always yet to come'

I want to say i'm not the same person that i was

but i feel the same.

I'm still childish, spoilt, hot-tempered

yada,yada,yada

In the end,

i'm just me.

~*~

Happy Birthday to Me!!!

Lazy Me~

Its been a while since i write a post,

I dunno what to write.

I have a lot to tell.

But i lost interest on telling other people about it.

yada, yada,yada....

Besides, the internet connection still is not in.

So far from what i heard only 10-15 floor got connection.

As for me, my room is at the 3rd floor.

It will be a while i guess.

Maybe the BF will get connected first.

Muahaha~

Lately i have been taking more milk product in my system.
Not really sure if i like it,

but, it's time to reconsider. (^-^;)

I dislike milk. And i don't take milk.

Well, that was not the point here.

I'm just trying to be healthier i guess.

I have been sick for a week already.

Well, i hope there's nothing serious going on.

Only slight fever, slight runny nose and headache.

Been taking panadol and some antibiotics for a while.

And recently i stop taking the antibiotics.

Too toxic for me i guess.

Hope to be feeling well again.

I love the feeling healthy.

It makes me feel great and energetic.

Sigh~

Somewhere i Belong~

It's sad that another long weekend has ended

And it makes me wonder why good times have to end up so quickly.

I also pondered,

despited this really awful headache and heartache,

about me and my place here on earth.

Watch Your...

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.

Watch your words, for they become actions.

Watch your actions, for they become habits.

Watch your habits, for they become character.

Watch your character for it become your destiny.

~Karma is a Bitch~

I Wonder...

I wonder how many tears and bruises you need before your heart is truly broken.

I wonder how many times you can listen to the words

before they numb you completely.

I wonder how many times you need to say the words so that you can believe in them.

I wonder how many times you need to curl and rock yourself,

chanting over and over again that everything woul be alright

before things really do turn out alright.

I wonder about forevers, is there such thing?

I wonder about words and what we can believe in it.

I wonder about Love and what lies in them.

I wonder about how much a heart can hold.

I wonder about sharing.

I wonder about jealousy.

I wonder about death.

I wonder about hope

I wonder about lies

I wonder about the truth.

I wonder about the future

I wonder about the dreams i weave.

I wonder, I just wonder

For the heat and tongue deceives even the most discerning and wise

and we are disillusioned to see the things that are not truly there.

Sometimes, we need to wake up and see for yourself for what you are.

In my case, nothing really much.

Maybe i'm just a Loser that keep doing the same mistake.

I wonder why it took me so long to see all this and to feel it.

I wonder..

Sending you my love on your birthday.

Happy Birthday Mama!!

Thinking of you with love on your birthday

and wishing you everything that brings you happiness today and always.
To the world, you may be one person.

But to me, you are the world.

I love You!

I <3 Mama!

Happy Diwali!

It's been a while since i updated this blog.

Well, since the idea and time wasn't there,

i sort of lazy to blog.

Besides, the new internet connection sucks!

So put it all together= Laziness

:P

As for now, well..

Seriously, i have no idea what to write about.

I'm Idea-less.

There is something I really want to write about.

But, i'm just too lazy and wish i could forget.

Let it go i guess.

But it's getting harder for me to do so.

OMG!

How i wish i can just snap my finger and make it all go away.

Sigh~

I know that a lot of people think that I'm stupid & selfish.

I kinda agree with them you know.

I'm stupid and selfish.

What more can i say?

You don't really know me

if you really think of me to be like that.

Arrgghhhh!

I got nothing more to say.

~*~*~*~*~

Happy Diwali to All My Friends!

Have a blast guys!

Gift Of Love~

Happy Birthday my dearest and sweetest,

not a day goes by when I do not think of you

and how empty my life would be if you were not here.

With each year I'll love you more.

Remember that your best years are still ahead of you

and I'll be there for every up down and in between

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!